"I can do it myself, Mommy."
The one sentence that can break a Mommy's heart instantly!
Lately my 6 year old has been branching out and testing her independence.
This morning while getting ready for school I went and got all the stuff to do her hair and sat down, she looks at me and says, "I don't need that, I can do it myself!". Umm, I always do her hair in the morning, it's my thing....how dare she try and do it herself! My heart was slightly broken, but I let her do her own hair, she did a pretty good job too. I was proud of her for that, but deep down, I was a little upset, it is one less thing that I am needed for.
A little while later after getting to the school, we got out of the car and I was going to walk into the office to get my sticker to enter the building when she says, "I can walk myself to class today, Mommy." Just then I felt like I had been punched in the gut......it is one thing to do her own hair, but walking herself to class....there has to be a line drawn about how much kids are allowed to grow up all at once! I remember this feeling all too well when my now 9 year old started branching out and doing things on her own, it started out slow and then suddenly she starts ducking for cover so her friends didn't see me giving her a kiss and hug.
So here's me, standing outside the double doors while both of my girls walk to their separate classes, all by themselves, with no help from me. I had a slight empty feeling while watching them walk away. Some tears may or may not have welled up.....but on the other hand, I couldn't help but be proud of them for branching out and doing things on their own, I just hope it doesn't happen too quickly, I still need them to need Mommy every once in awhile.
Why does it have to be this hard watching your kids grow up!? I don't think I will ever get used to it.
Lately my 6 year old has been branching out and testing her independence.
This morning while getting ready for school I went and got all the stuff to do her hair and sat down, she looks at me and says, "I don't need that, I can do it myself!". Umm, I always do her hair in the morning, it's my thing....how dare she try and do it herself! My heart was slightly broken, but I let her do her own hair, she did a pretty good job too. I was proud of her for that, but deep down, I was a little upset, it is one less thing that I am needed for.
A little while later after getting to the school, we got out of the car and I was going to walk into the office to get my sticker to enter the building when she says, "I can walk myself to class today, Mommy." Just then I felt like I had been punched in the gut......it is one thing to do her own hair, but walking herself to class....there has to be a line drawn about how much kids are allowed to grow up all at once! I remember this feeling all too well when my now 9 year old started branching out and doing things on her own, it started out slow and then suddenly she starts ducking for cover so her friends didn't see me giving her a kiss and hug.
So here's me, standing outside the double doors while both of my girls walk to their separate classes, all by themselves, with no help from me. I had a slight empty feeling while watching them walk away. Some tears may or may not have welled up.....but on the other hand, I couldn't help but be proud of them for branching out and doing things on their own, I just hope it doesn't happen too quickly, I still need them to need Mommy every once in awhile.
Why does it have to be this hard watching your kids grow up!? I don't think I will ever get used to it.
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